7 Week Journey (7WJ) – Day 2

So, the count down continues.

This morning I sat with my bills.  I laid out the spiral notebook where I keep all my financial details – account balances, due dates, etc.  I wrote them all down a few different ways, in various formats, and gave them some love! I appreciate being able to do the things that I’ve been able to do, to get by, but now its time to change my paradigm. But how?

A friend suggested that I tap on some of the issues that are coming up for me.  The panic about moving my daughter, the commitment to myself to move, and the desire to do it right.  It helped, a little, but it shifted the focus to a much bigger issue.  You see, I know that I will find a way to do the things that I need to do.  Finding a way to pull off the necessary is never the problem.  Setting aside and planning to make the extraordinary happen or happen with ease, now that’s another story.  What the tapping brought up was my underlying lack of commitment to creating my own financial security.  Instead, I put myself in situations where I hope that it will be done for me.  I’ll have to work on this more.  For now, I’ll get it all to happen, I just know it.

The other thing that I’ve started focusing on for the past two weeks is my weight and my health.  A few years ago, I lost about 50 lbs.  Unfortunately, 30 of them found their way back.  Add that to lots of other factors and let’s just say that I’m feeling fat and unhappy.  Achy.  Sluggish.  Non-energetic.  So two weeks ago, I decided to get my butt in gear and get it back to the gym.  For now, it’s mostly cardio and a mix of that because my knee is sometimes giving me shooting pains, to know it’s there.  In the past two weeks, I’ve only taken one day off.  The rest have been at least 30 minutes of something…but usually longer.  I’m feeling better, but the scale isn’t yet giving me any love back.  It will!  If I keep it up and keep feeling good for moving, I know that I’ll see the benefit!

Day 2 down, 47 to go!  I know that I can make this ride a fun one!  It doesn’t have to be hard, if I love the process!