I kept the monsters nipping at my heels

I don’t always have great days.  In fact, the last 36 hours have been a bit of a bear, and yes, that included Mother’s Day.  But the things that would have previously grown to be monster’s living under my bed or for that matter what I just knew would grow to start the real zombie apocalypse, well, I took the fuel away, and didn’t fuel the fire.  Instead, of letting them grow, I kept them nipping at my heals.

Since early yesterday it was one thing after another.  An argument.  Someone trying to one up and get the best of me….put me down….challenge me…on purpose.  An old demon rearing his ugly head. Make that two demons. Emails in the middle of the night that screamed for action, and yes, I jumped and answered before 5 a.m. Back to back meetings.  Messed up parking. One thing after the next, after the next.

Many of these things would have previously caused me to complain about everything that was occurring….to me.  I would have become angry, upset, spread the story and ruined my day….or days. Stringing the negative actions together, they would feed each other.They would grow larger together than any one of them really was, alone.

But this morning, I fought the urge!  I kept asking, “What lesson can I learn from this?”  and “What can I see that’s good in this situation or my life right now?”  I kept asking these questions and looking for answers, writing them down.  It didn’t happen all at once, but it didn’t actually take that long…a miracle happened.  I changed to way I was thinking about the things that were going on….and as a result, they lost their power!

I feel fortunate that I remembered asking myself these questions. I am grateful that I chose to look at the situation through the eyes of love.  I was happy I had enough time to devote to the process to turn my attitude around.  It didn’t  keep unfortunate things from occurring, but it did remove their bite.

It is one thing to read about approaching problems this way and it is another thing to go through it, to live through it….to put it into action and to have it work!  Yay!!  I have to say that I’m so proud of myself, for remembering the words from the mentors who I know either personally or through their written or spoken words.  This shit works!  It really works!  Not only did the monsters not grow, but they aren’t even nipping at my heels.

What a perfectly lovely way to end the day!!