Resistance

  
Today, I honor my resistance and I also know that I can not give in. Today I know that I am fighting against my own barriers and demons. On the other side of the resistance fence I see the promise, the clouds, the blue sky…and it seems far away as though it is shining on someone else. 

It always comes, like an old, familiar friend. It comes when I’ve had a few particularly good days. Days where I see promise and potential. Days where I have wandered away from the familiar. At those times resistance is there, reminding me that it’s dangerous out there and I shouldn’t travel so far into the unfamiliar. 

Today, my resistance will not stop me but I will invite it to lie down with me, to feel the soft grass and to admire the blue sky. May be it will see shapes in the clouds that becon it, that dare it to dance and play, that assure it we will be fine. 

May be resistance is telling me that it is not my destination I am getting frustrated with, but my journey. Trying once again to hurry it up already. I will not be angry with it, or me, as I was yesterday, frustrated by the continued lack of clarity, of defined steps and direction. May be today I’ll let resistance be my friend and use it to my benefit and know that not yet doesn’t mean not ever. 

Today, I will honor my resistance and know that I’ve come a long, long way and there is no way in hell I’m turning back, as I once did. No way I ever could!!! 

As I have changed, so has my resistance. Her will isn’t as strong and era discomfort is different. So today, she can lie in the grass beside me. And if you find that you need to, why don’t you join us? 

It will soon be time to get moving again.