Truth

I’ve been here before with these confounding thoughts and aching ideas.  The chisel has been doing its work for some time now.

Rounding edges.

Forming lines.

Deeper.

Clearer.

The shape, my shape (this blog) begins to define and then fades.  What is it now?  It could be anything! The work that we can see is  being done on the outside but the real work is what goes on and the changes that occur deep within.

Hi old friends!  It’s been some time, hasn’t it?  This is my first step, in reviving this story, my story, your story. That’s where we will start.  Before the rock or log is struck, and shaped and crafted.  Before the lines become deeper … and clearer.

Where I start, we start… is with listening.  If I want to find my voice, I actually have to deeply and honestly, even vulnerably, listen.  I’ve mentioned before that I was asked to tune in, and my “in” became radio silence.  And then it became a manifesto of rationalization and justification.  The static and the arguments only masked the truth.  I had to make my way through to them.

To dig deeper, I start with listening to myself. I am asking and opening even though the answer may not be what I want to hear.  I start with asking honest questions and pausing, waiting, for the truth in the answers.

Truth.  Real and honest truth.  Which is so very far away from the rationalization and argument I am prone to.  If I want the truth, I have to be able to accept the truth.  (“You can’t handle the truth!” – Well, that used to be true Jack, but now just wait.)

The truth is actually layers and layers deep.  I’m sure yours is too.  So it takes time.  It takes patience.  It takes…OK, let’s get real.  It takes knowing that the other bullshit I was telling myself for years was just a weak smoke screen in a hookah bar.  It might smell nice until it stinks and its only temporarily hiding what’s on the other side.

The truth. We seek it even though we are afraid of what we might find.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on this or other topics.  And I’d love for you to subscribe.  (I’m sure you can find it on my page.  I promise not to spam you or sell you or any of the other annoying things that leave you with 1500 unopened emails.  (OOPS….that’s me)

Love you lots!

Be magnificent!

More…next Wednesday!

Barb