What’s driving me?

Mercury is out of retrograde and yet suddenly I’m feeling a little … off.  OK, if you know me, no jokes please.  But seriously, things feel – not quite right.  My inner control freak would love to know exactly why.  If I knew why, then I could fix it!  Well, you may know better than I that just because I know that something is wrong doesn’t always mean that I can do something to change it.  Sometimes things are just out of my control…oh, shudder the thought!

But, as I was trying to think about what might be causing my unrest I realized that part of it is the result of being so far out of my normal routine.  The past two weeks have been a roller coaster of ups and downs and the last week having a massive down and out, more sick than I’ve been in 20 years.

Yet, as I look at my options for moving forward, I think about the things that drive me to action.  It really boils down to two simple facts: 1. I do things because I want something to happen or 2. I do things because I’m avoiding something or want it not to happen.

In that simple recognition, I find my own retrograde.  I cannot move forward or move positively if my actions are being driven by avoidance.  Wow!  Can it really be that simple? I think I’ll give it a try and let you know!